I'm so happy I could burst or dance for joy or sing out of my bedroom window! X

Hot showers save the soul! Well this time last week my best friend was getting married. It feels like so long ago now, all the preparations and anticipation, it is so strange. I knew as soon as the wedding was over it would be time to think about Christmas but I really don't want to get caught up in the materialistic nature of the festive season. It is a magical time of year and the concentration should be family, friends, all loved ones and especially the children in our lives, they are what truly makes Christmas into a happy and joyous time. It's also a solemn time to reflect on the happenings of that year, but living in the past has never made anyone truly happy, if you can let yourself be at peace then surely that should be present enough? I hope that the close of the year will be happy, memorable and full of love. That should be the same fr everyone regardless of feuds, ended friendships or relationships, all that crap needs to be left to one side and we should all just take a moment to think about what and who makes us really happy and give that the time and care it deserves. I know this is all a bit deep for a Saturday afternoon but recent events have changed my perspective on how I want to live my life, be treated and treat others. What a difference a day makes, I knew a change was coming and it is just not what I was expecting but I'm happy and grateful for it x

Answers on a postcard please xg

Goodness it's been a while

Well the wedding of the year is nearly upon us and the preparations are well and truly under way. I'm currently at the bride to be's house baking pastry cases! To say the last few weeks have been crazy busy would be an understatement but as soon as things have calmed down and the normal pace of life returns some huge changes are afoot, tis too soon to reveal all but there are going to be a few surprises.xx

Well hello there...

Been a busy week or so... I now have two jobs! On top of that the market is doing fine and dandy and I am moving forward with lots of my projects. Life not been so good on the whole health side, had a full blown epileptic fit on Sunday. So from now on I'm going to have to keep life as stress free as possible, cut out the dead wood thats always weighed me down and hurt me and move forward.
The wedding is 4 weeks tomorrow and all the preparations seem to be in place thank fully, there is bound to be a few last minute bits and pieces but that is to be expected. I keep trying my bridesmaid dress on everyday to make sure it still fits ha ha! Well I will have lots more to tell you next week xx

Well I didn't think today was ever going to come. Its my last day at The Big Geen Bag... thank bloomin' goodness. I worked here yesterday and then was straight to the pub, no stopping for food, I'm so tired today, but I have a few good things to look forward to now and Minnie and me are still planning our great escape, she should be tunnelling in the basement at home as I type this. I don't know, it just seems like I'm quite on my own at the moment. Everyone is too busy to notice that I might not be feeling that good. I got my appointment through for the neurologist and thats upset me because it isn't until the 15th October. I imagine I will be going on my own because that's the easiest way to deal with things. The people I have around me tend to be more practical and matter of fact about things but I am more emotional so I don't manage to hide my fear so well. I suppose it's a good thing that my support network are like that but I kind of just want someone to talk to that will get upset about me not being very well, strange I know but it's almost like I need to see a visual representation of how I'm actually feeling about the situation.

Just 2 days left.... really tired, been working shop and pub and then throw a loads of housework and other commitments on top of that and you get a worn out Lucy! I'm looking forward to Wednesday morning... a nice long run followed by peace and quiet! AMAZING! I've got another interview a week on Friday for a new Charity shop in Matlock, I kind of like the idea of working in Matlock a few days a week, nice change of scenery. Its the birthday a week tomorrow, I hate getting older, it's tricky business indeed x